ConfusedHonesty

He asked me to block him repeatedly, but all while saying he loves me and how impossible I am.  Complete crazy making gaslighting and manipulation!  So many versions of crazy making accusing me of the exact things he does and has done to me, as he does it!  Blamed me for his stress and being so-called hurt, all while ignoring me and putting me down.  So I finally did.  He said I bring him stress, hurt him, and was so negative to me.  So I blocked him!!  Even though I am in my mid 30's, I've only had a divorce as a break-up.  So this has been eye-opening and absolutely heartbreaking! 

 I thought I found my guy and that was it.  We have a family, and we live happily ever after.   But instead, it was pure hell for years and years.  My first bad relationship was with my own family, and I got out just enough to make into a bad marriage with an abusive man.  Then even after I made it out, I got love bombed by a felon who was on probation.  If that was how he was described as maybe I wouldn't have believed everything, but what he showed me for so so long was a whole different man than the man he truly was.  He became more abusive than my ex-husband in a very short time, while one took over a decade, this one took just under three years to become so clear.   After over 35 years, I choose me.  I choose my happiness and my children's happiness.  No more.    So today, I marry myself.  Never will I let someone take over me and put me down like my whole life...