ConfusedHonesty

My whole life I was always pleasing others, serving others, and making others feel good & loved.  I didn't mind, I was conditioned to just not mind.  Conditioned to just be a "good girl."  Do right by people, and assumed they'd love me back the same way.  Feeling like I have an abundant amount of love to give, just in hopes to be loved the same way back!  I was doing it all wrong, I was giving and pouring myself out my whole life into the wrong people.  

He asked me to block him repeatedly, but all while saying he loves me and how impossible I am.  Complete crazy making gaslighting and manipulation!  So many versions of crazy making accusing me of the exact things he does and has done to me, as he does it!  Blamed me for his stress and being so-called hurt, all while ignoring me and putting me down.  So I finally did.  He said I bring him stress, hurt him, and was so negative to me.  So I blocked him!!  Even though I am in my mid 30's, I've only had a divorce as a break-up.  So this has been eye-opening and absolutely heartbreaking!